It has been a wonderful experience, just as I had hoped it would be. A real taste of what having my own classroom would be like. The planning, the grading, the discipline, the parent meetings, and the fun. All the fun.
I really find it amusing that I feel so conflicted in this role. I have no trouble being in charge when in the classroom. I have no trouble making the classroom decisions, but when faced with being a part of the faculty... I turn inward. I hold myself back. And yet when I try to declare that I am not a part of the faculty, the teachers all pull me in saying "Yes you are!" So I know that I am the only one holding me back. I wonder if it is because I am uncomfortable, or simply that I know that this is not my position and therefore do not wish to seem overconfident in it. I know my place, and yet I have loved receiving all the support from the students, parents, and other teachers.
I think that when my time comes, and it will come, that I will be happy and confident knowing that I am supposed to be there. But for now, I will resume my happy, supportive, substitute role and still have some free time for me and Avery. I only have a few more years with her being so little.
Ms Neuhart and Ms Whalen's 2nd grade class
4 comments:
I am so happy for you! I love this picture. You met this challenge and relished it!
((((hugs)))) Tara! When it is right, you will know. In the mean time, have some fun! Sounds like you are doing just that. :-)
i remember discussing this teaching gig with you when i first met you and you have taken the bull by the horn and are doing fabulous! you'll be fine. HUGE hugs, rachel
Tara, when it's time you will know it just like you said. I think any child would love having you for a teacher and as for being part of the staff, well we love having you as part of ours! Can't wait to see you on Saturday it feels like decades.
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