Memories fade

Babies have this amazing way of moving. All babies have it. You recognize it every time you see it. Aww.. look at the startle reflex. Oh- did you see her hands? The ol' one eye. You know what I mean. You recognize it, but you also forget it.

I am always surprised by this. When Dillon was born, I was amazed by all these things. When Bailey was born, I was amazed by all these things. And again with Avery. I am sure if we have more I will be amazed by them. These things never cess to amaze me.

But what gets me is that I can not figure out how to capture it. How can I get a picture? A still frame can't possibly capture what I am looking for. I want so badly to remember but my memory just can't keep hold of it all. Even as I write this, I can't remember certain specifics for examples. Oh sure, I can say that one hand wave. And you would say, yeah sure. And I don't even realize as these things are disappearing before my eyes. You love to watch your children grow. You relish each and every new thing and the other things just melt away.

It isn't a bad thing to always look to the future. It is quite good and positive to be a forward thinker. But I just want, somehow, to be able to look back and remember.